It’s nearly here and I can’t remember ever feeling this seasonless. Less than festive, less than seasonal, less than everything. Less myself. Just less. 

I don’t want Christmas to be in a few days, I don’t even want to wake up in a few days. I just want to sleep.

I’m under the weather today and I don’t know if it’s stress or the weather or my mood or what. My face hurts to touch, my bones ache, my joints feel so OLD and I’m just much less everything than normal. 

Less cheer, less mirth, less kindness, less self care, less.. everything. Less EVERYTHING.

And I don’t think there’s any more to give.