I look back on some posts I made. And I can see the shine on them. Its kind of fake – I was practically rubbing them like a magic lamp, like if I shine it enough it will be okay. There’s a hint of desperation in ALL the positives that were listed, that got shoved in to brighten up an otherwise dull and dreary sentence. I look back and i remember how it felt. And it wasn’t good. But where it wasn’t good, it wasn’t so much bad either, I dont know. I guess it’s a benefit of hindsight and the objectiveness that comes with being so far removed from it. It’s a strange feeling, and I’m not sure I like it.